i bind the red flower onto my wrist.

people can be so skeptical at times.
people can amuse other people.
people never fail to amaze me.

why do you keep all your hurt bottled inside ?
you smile and you laugh just like any other.
you dont try to tell your dearest frens, but thats because you have already tried.
but the message dont get to them, or so you think. well, at least, based on their opinion.
the euphonical actions is actually very actuating .
and its disturbing, to me.

but i guess, this is the way of a Human.

pig.

this i gotta write.

ZACH IS SUCHA DONKAE !!

ps black and red goes well together.

my blogger updating page took excatly 15minutes to load.

my internet was down for a few days. Hence , the un-updated lj. and now that the internet is up, lj is down... so here i am, on blogspot. have tons to say, but gimme a min.


okay, back.

so anywayyy... im back on track. everything in my life. (: including my JC. i love him like crazyy!! ive been studying too. been studying with joash fuyu nicholas and some other friends (one day one friend) family is fine, i'll suppose.


wed was with nic and the three.
thurs was with ahmad and the three.
fri was dap in the morn and the three. says in the afternoon (he followed me to kap) and the three. nic came over for dinner that night.


ive been pms lately.. so thats alright if im getting all gritty jitty right?
ive been reading the bible too... (: its good. im spending more time with JC to repair our r/s.
everything is truly fine... just that my studying doesnt seem to be improving much. i dont really know. its up to god. ive tried what my body has tried. like mell said later can play like crazy, for now just pray like crazy.

lol.
she's a funny friend.

i went back to school on fri too... met ahmad azy and kavi. azy and kav stayed a short while. im glad mad bro is studying. i didnt get to see fiq. ): says studying. so thats awesome! i hope my other friends in spain is studying too... dont look left or right, you know who you are. if youre sec 4 taking o's next week, then thats you.

ive been thinking a lot lately. i told says about JC and stuff. he then gave me a dressing down. i realised my mistake. and i know ive to change. cause i want a change. (: now, everything seems fine too me. i want to be a love-giver in his name. so that'd be awesome right? i sense something powerful coming along. i hope im in it. one day... i'll be his love-giver. (:

he sent me hints at first. sherlyn talked to me. but i think he knew i wanted that on hold, so he didnt force it through. then there were my new study buddy (joash and nic). joash has been a real help. throughly throughly. both in terms of BK and studying. nic has helped too in studying. joash was so excited about church visiting . and everyday when i met him, church would come in topic. and nic's key to his three hearts kind of brought everything together one of the days. the trinity as i learnt from joash. (: its sweet to know that theyre experiencing JC too. im glad. finally, the big showdown was with says. (: im glad i didnt go lunch with fuyu and the gang. cause when i brought says down to kap from sch, our table was empty and it was easier talking to him alone.

(: thansk JC. i love you.

and another thing, is that..... thinking back. this year. ive being meeting all my childhood friends. nicchia kristi joash. (; <3 <3 <3 it has been awesome. want to know the biggest change in all ? they now are Firm christians. they know of their faith and their relationship with him. thats really touching. three friends saved. now looking for more. (:

-ilove jc.

lance armstrong.

I WANT TO STUDY
I WILL STUDY.

in everything i do, i want to glorify your name.
i want to walk into your empire a righteous life.
penning down my thoughts, all i want to say to you.
in my deepest desires, is your name crossed above my heart.
last season your memories fade.
but memories built makes it hard to erase.
makes me miss you more.

i love you.
you taught me love does exist, eternally.
you taught me that being stray doesnt mean being away.

-the moment hast arrived.

it starts today.

ITS IN A FEW HOURS!!

gotta be in school at 1215. think it starts at 1245... not really sure.
but i'll be in school at 11. think the people will be there by then. hoooo... miss them like crazy.
everyone's ponning school, im seeing more of xinying huiying and mag than anybody in my class.
least theres night lessons once a week now...
yeaaa!!


haha.. maybee.. im just feeling a little high from the thought of being able to meet the many many people i havent seen for weeks (its either im ponning or they are.) OR maybe im feeling the jitters from knowing the biology pract's TODAY.

ohwells. (: pretty cool with it actually.

-dont want tell you.

once in a while.... you just have to.

YESH!! you just have to...

go tomorrow.

im not proud of my grades. but neither do i feel the empty void any more. furthermore, i love love LOVE the sufficiently content feeling i have within me.

if theres one person i'll pray for out of the blues, that'd be PONG my buddy o' man. (:


i heart you.
love, your little precious.





so anyway... i didnt do too good for my prelims.
R5: 25 but minus two, cause of cca points. so that'd be 23.
B4: 17. not good either.


sighh... but ohwells. (: im glad i have daddy watching over me.

-teddy bears and peas topping.